Yo, I'll tell you what I want...what I really, really want!

I wanna zigga-zig-uhhhh!

 

 

Hi ladies! Yep, I'm still here. Talk about making some major life changes. (Hence the thoughtful picture below). I am beginning to take better care of myself (exercising 5 days a week, eating healthy foods in small portions, taking vitamins [my goal is to lose 15 lbs]), weed bad "friends" out of my life, and try and grasp an overall plan of where I want to be in 5 years. It's not that I have bad friends that party too much and do drugs or anything crazy like that, it's just...I feel like I am a really amazing friend to some girls I'm close with, and they don't seem to reciprocate. Some have, but not as many as I'd thought would have. That's okay, life is about changes and meeting new people. My big question lately is, "How do I meet new people?" All this thinking is the explanation of the picture below.

 

 

Unfortunately, the job I ended up landing didn't work out. It truly is unfortunate, because I loved the actual job part of it, but there were circumstances that I just wasn't going to tolerate and don't feel I should have to explain that to anyone but my best friend/boyfriend, for financial reasons. Possibly my brother, as well. Management wasn't doing anything about it, and that's when you know it's time to move on, even if I don't know how long it will take to land a job I love. I do know, however, that I want a job working at a small beauty or clothing boutique, and then to possibly go back to school later in life and open up my own business. My friend Spring, that has the store Beach Bum Bath & Body, is the inspiration behind that. She sponsored the giveaway that Miss Julie did end up winning (and I promise I am shipping that out soon)! I feel like that would make me happiest. Doing what she does. Here's the thing...

 

I started this blog out as a fashion & beauty (mostly beauty blog) and it's turned into more of a lifestyle blog lately, and that's because I have not felt good about myself or the fact that even for an instant I was letting the real me start to slip away. Yes, I absolutely want to continue to blog about fashion & beauty. However, I won't really be posting pictures of myself until I'm close to my weight goal (call it insecurity; it is) but I would hope that my readers are supportive more than anything. I just have a lot of planning to do; and excuse my language, but I need to get my ass in gear and start doing the things that are going to get me places! There's no excuse on waiting for tomorrow. Waiting, we all know, gets you nowhere. So, I really hope my readers plan to stick with me throughout this journey!

 

I also just wanted to show you the warm indoor booties I got from Kohl's that I am obessed with! Obsessed. I wear them anytime I'm out of bed. So comfy! I just want you ladies to know how beautiful you are, and remember to never sacrifice your happiness or settle for less than you deserve. It's so not worth it in the end. I do have a couple of great friends, and you betcha I'm keeping them close. I'll search for others. I'll continue to better myself, both physically and mentally. I will cherish every moment with my boyfriend (the absolute love of my life, even if he has been booby trapping my presents and stalking...as if I'm actually going to take a peek--haha)! I will also cherish time spent with family. I will continue to discover things about myself and what I want in this wonderful gift I have been given--LIFE! Do the same, won't you? ;)